Ah... I hate this feeling.

  What happened after that?

  I can't seem to remember...

  I didn't realize when I had arrived home, but I couldn't tell what time it was or where I was. I was soaked with rain and was very hungry to the point where I couldn't move.

  All I can remember is I slept, ate, and then wrote my report, but anything beyond that is a blur and distorted.

  Though, I could recall some white-haired boy saying something to me. I can't remember what it is. No. It's not like I can't remember, it's that I don't want to remember.

  I feel like he has said something before, but every time I refuse to, my mind goes bnk and my emotions become empty.

  Whatever it is, I think it's better to ignore everything that is not reted to the mission. Acting on emotions, getting attached, or having any connections will only create unviable variables.

  After all, it's all just a fleeting daydream.

  It was still raining outside. I was sitting beside the window on a chair.

  The light in the room was off. There was only darkness because there was a power outage, probably due to the weather. The only light that was here was the random lightning in the sky.

  It was quite quiet here. The only sound that was audible was the sound of the rain. The air was cold, yet carried faint memories that faded away in the breeze.

  "Hah."

  A deep sigh came out of my mouth.

  I feel a burning pain in my chest, and my lungs numb.

  My eyes listless, my skin dry, my body heavy.

  Everything feels so close yet so far away. I feel connected, yet disjointed.

  I stood up and started reading some novels and books, but I was bored. I decided to read some mangas but lost interest. I decided to watch anime but felt exhausted.

  Nothing feels fun.

  I feel so tired.

  I y on the bed, still restless yet listless.

  I don't have an appetite, yet my stomach feels empty. I'm not thirsty, yet my throat feels dry.

  I want to die, but I can't. I want to scream, but no voice would come out. I want to feel frustrated, but I don't have any emotions. I want to cry, but the tears won't come out.

  I want to ugh, only sighs would come out.

  I want to...

  What do I want?

  I want to die, yet live. I want to disappear but exist. I want to die, but not feel any pain.

  It's suffocating, the... air... it feels heavy, yet light.

  I feel...

  I don't feel anything. It's so empty. My heart aches...

  I miss you.

  【Episode 1:】

  I hate this feeling. Whenever it rains, it feels like no one is watching me. And I can be myself. The clouds are casting a shadow upon the world, hiding me. So no one watches me, no one remembers me. No one trusts me, no one believes me, no one loves me.

  I feel like I can be myself.

  And the purple sky is hidden by the clouds, stopping it from seeing me.

  The rotten me, who dreams to be myself. Who keeps hope. The one who feels emotions.

  「Chapter 3: Rain」

  I dragged myself to the door, grabbed my umbrel, and walked outside. I was still wearing my b coat.

  The rain was falling slowly, but I walked on the streets. There was barely anyone here.

  There were puddles on the roads that spshed when someone walked over them.

  The gently cold wind brushed against my skin. Although I was weak, it was incredibly cold.

  Lightning fshed in the sky, and it was beginning to rain heavily.

  I somehow still remember her words. Even if I forget everything, I think I might never forget her. Maybe.

  I...

  "Whenever it rains, there is no one watching you, so you can be a little bit more selfish."

  She said, standing in the rain, her clothes drenched, her hair wet and yet beautifully flowing with the wind.

  "Why?"

  I asked in a hesitant voice.

  "Well... it's not something I don't know as well... I-it's a feeling I have. Everything around me feels a bit more distant yet close. The rain somehow calms me down."

  She said, stumbling upon her words, unlike her usual self.

  "Why.......are you telling me this?"

  I asked again in a hesitant, weary voice.

  At that time, I had this strange premonition.

  This is the same well...

  "Why, you ask? Mmm... I wonder too."

  She paused for a second, looking back, almost falling off the railing she was standing on.

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  Ugh... I don't want to remember anymore... No...

  I stumbled down on the street, but I somehow managed to hold it in and continued walking.

  ...

  I kept walking until I lost track of time.

  ^The world blinking before me, as reality faded with time.

  Soon, I reached a park and walked ahead.

  There was a certain white-haired boy on the bench looking depressed.

  I walked towards him, and when I was in front of him, the umbrel I was holding blocked the rain falling on him.

  He slowly looked up, his red eyes faintly dark.

  He had a confused look on his face.

  I grabbed his hand and put the umbrel in his grip.

  I turned around to walk, but—

  "Why?"

  He spoke in a weary, husky, deep voice that held a little tremble in it.

  I put my fingers at my lips, and thought for a moment, and smiled.

  He looked even more confused, his cheeks slightly flushed.

  I walked away, but after walking some distance, I stopped under a shop.

  After some time, I went back to the park. He was not there.

  I sat on the bench, resting my back against the wood.

  I looked at the sky, the clouds were going away, and the sky was clearing up, revealing the moon that was slightly crimson but blue.

  Now, who would have thought someone would actually care about me?

  As if.

  Looking back, it was quite strange.

  "I love you."

  He said calmly, with bnk eyes devoid of any life or emotions.

  "..."

  I didn't say anything, looking at him.

  "So why won't you look at me? Only at me. You are for me, and I am for you? Only I deserve—no one else but me deserves you, right? You think so, right? I know it, you love me too, right?"

  He said, tilting his head, with an ominous aura around him, his eyes still bnk.

  I felt a sudden chill and took a step back.

  "I know you love me, because there is no way you can love anything, as you can't get any more broken than you already are..."

  After that, anything he said was just a blur to me, his voice distorted, almost making me speechless.

  "Hah."

  I let out a sigh and looked at him. He had flushed cheeks, he gazed at me, and his expression changed as he started ughing.

  "Did you really believe everything I said was actually true?"

  He stammered on his words as he couldn't hold his ughter, his fingers slightly shaking and his voice cracking.

  Heh.

  "Is it not?"

  I said with an uninterested tone.

  He stared at me for a moment, smiled, and nodded.

  I was about to walk but stopped for a second; however, after gncing behind me, I walked away.

  After that, I don't remember anything, as I met up with someone and returned home.

  I'm sure I knew what I was doing, but I didn't want to feel vulnerable, as even the slightest weakness could result in the end of this rotten world.

  The rain had stopped. The clouds were still in the sky, but not that much, as the slightly red moon was visible.

  The gleaming light covering the ground, as the darkness overshadowed that light.

  The stars in the sky shining brightly, yet so close, yet far away.

  I feel like I belong to this world, but don't.

  I don't deserve to live.

  But—

  I coughed blood, my lungs hurting with every breath I took.

  My eyes felt drowsy, and I was about to fall asleep, but I remembered what Seolhyun said.

  "There's not much time remaining."

  The world will end soon.

  Re is going to evolve into angel css, though it may occur sooner, but I have already taken care of that.

  Now, the main problem is Carbon—the organization or cult, whatever it is, that has been on the move recently.

  Their goal is to kill Re, but these impcable fools don't realize that killing it would only worsen the situation.

  I have to take care of them.

  There might also be a chance that some other variable will appear...

  "Ah... What a drag."

  I groaned as I closed my eyes.

  But I guess, I have to do it.

  "Hah..."

  I let out a deep sigh and stood up.

  "Oh... why did this all happen to me!"

  I screamed as I stomped on the ground.

  "Why does everyone have to hate me!"

  The moonlight was shining on the park. Most of the people were asleep.

  "Why did my family have to die too!!"

  The cold wind brushed against my hair.

  "Why can't this world be kinder to me? What did I do to deserve this? Why does everyone have to leave me too? I can't take this anymore!!"

  Some of the people around took notice of me, but moved on with reluctant faces.

  "Everyone will leave me. I don't care anymore. Why should I live? Why? Why?"

  With each word, my voice got louder, and my lungs screamed.

  I slumped on the bench, tired and exhausted.

  I closed my eyes... Everything became bck.

  You...

  I don't know what is happening anymore.

  I stood up and walked home.

  When I reached my apartment, there was a call from Byulhye. I picked up.

  […Did you get the message?]

  She spoke in a drowsy voice.

  "Mmm."

  I checked my phone. There was a message from an unknown sender.

  **

  [To Subject [ ?????????????????????????????????????????????????Erro ?????????????????????????????????????????????????r 40 ?????????????????????????????????????????????????4]

  xx xx xxxx

  03:45:52

  「Dear    , The spring blooms with happiness and sorrow, and eventually turns into fall. The pink cherry blossoms fall to turn into brown, only to be dusted away. Everyone wakes up hoping, to fall into despair. I could not fathom such a thing as hope, as everything around me is my hope. I cannot convince myself what is hope or what is despair. I lost hope and despaired, only to gain it back to despair again. I cannot allow anyone to experience such cruelty as false hope, but I cannot control such things.

  I do not want to just mindlessly hope that things will get better, but there is nothing we can do. I can say all the things with bravado, but I know it—I do not have enough courage.

  I can only just hope that everything goes well, that the next time it would be better, that better days will come.

  I can only hope that you will remain safe, and can do this.

  I know how much you have suffered and want to die, at st to get rid of this suffering, but please listen to my request one st time. Even if you do or do not, it's your choice. Everyone here will respect your decision.

  I am sure your mom wanted you to live, so do not make any rash choices. Think this through with a calm mind, with emotions. Do what you want to do.

  With all the emotional things out, ■ ?????????????????????????????????????????????????■■■ ?????????????????????????????????????????????????■ ????????????????????????????????????????????????? has been acting weird...

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  **

  "The rest is corrupted."0

  I spoke while still reading the message.

  [Do you think that is behind this?]

  "Mmm... I don't think so, because that thing is a paradox."

  And you shouldn't be asking me this, I only know about Re.

  Most of all, I'm not directly involved as I'm just here for a special occasion.

  Investigation Re. But my main goal is to save this rotten world."

  [Oh... Don't act like that. Even if you are like that, I will not leave you.]

  "Like it matters..."

  I walked toward the window, looking at the moon.

  [The moon is beautiful tonight.]

  She said after a long pause, with a soft voice.

  "Yeah."

  I said while I walked and id on the bed.

  "So, about the Carbon..."