Bae Myung-seon only felt that his heart was in a mess at this moment. On the one hand, he had endured five years of suffering. On the other hand, there was the fragile Won Soo-hwan.
"Even with you by my side, I still feel uneasy. And yet, I've taken the path of a moth to flame. I can't control my emotions. I'm not saying this because I want you to do anything about it. It's just that I'm telling you what kind of person I am. I'll try to change, only because I've already fallen for you."
Yu Shu Huan just spoke out her own question. Between two people, it's definitely not just one person who has a problem. However, this point of Pei Ming Xuan's question still needs to be clarified by Pei Ming Xuan himself.
"So what do you want?" Pei Mingxuan's words revealed a hint of coldness, unsure of the use of Yuan Shuheng's so-called efforts.
"What about you, then? What do you want to do?" Yuan Shu Han asked Pei Ming Xuan back. He himself didn't know what he wanted. Did Pei Ming Xuan know what he wanted? The Pei Ming Xuan from five years ago and the one from five years later... had changed a bit. Such changes, Yuan Shu Han could actually accept. It's just that in his heart, there was a little less sense of dependence.
She was finally exhausted, so she wanted to find someone to rely on. No matter what kind of encounter it was between them... Now that the passion has faded away... they should face their relationship with reason. The mistake was always on both sides. One hand can't clap by itself. Both she and Pei Mingxuan were wrong.
She doesn't just want Pei Mingxuan to be her reliance, she also needs to become Pei Mingxuan's reliance. Why can't two people rely on each other? It's better than one person being the wisteria and the other being the tree that gets entwined. Yuan Shuhuan is not the wisteria, and Pei Mingxuan won't be the tree that gets entwined either.
It's just like the countless times she had thought about it before, something that shouldn't have started in the first place. Now that she has fallen for Yuan Shu Han, she still wants to continue this relationship. Didn't they just make a promise last night? Or rather, it should be said that it was just a few hours ago...
"I want to know how." Pei Mingxuan's sentence should have been very affirmative, but when he said it out loud, he somehow felt a sense of uncertainty. Pei Mingxuan himself didn't know why, and could only let this feeling overwhelm him entirely.
Bai Mingxuan didn't know what he really wanted in his heart either. In the past, he only thought that being with Yuan Shuhuan was enough. Now it seemed like he wanted to get more and more things. It turned out that the problem wasn't just Yuan Shuhuan, but also the increasingly deep yuan in his own heart...
At that time, I was also somewhat arrogant and complacent. Although the word "依宠而骄" is not very fitting here, I couldn't find a more suitable phrase to describe it.
"Although I have countless shortcomings, at least we are still together now. If you want to continue living with me... we must constantly grind and polish our relationship, just like how it is now." Yuan Shu Han continued, his words unwavering.
It has come to this point now, and the two of them can only face it properly. If they don't clarify some things this time, the gap between the two people will only become bigger in the future. This is Yuan Shu Huan's current view and what she wants to do. Even though she knows that Pei Ming Xuan is not willing to talk about these things.
"As long as you don't leave." Bae Myung-seon slightly emphasized some words. At least, Won Seok-hwan didn't choose to leave himself. So all of this could actually be avoided. At least for himself, none of this was a problem. Even if there were already some slight grievances in his heart, it wasn't really a big deal for the two of them.
"I won't give up easily again, nor will I leave easily. But this isn't just my own matter. Just like before, it's always been you who has been making sacrifices. Do you feel like you're already exhausted? Do you feel resentment and unfairness in your heart? Love is ultimately a two-person affair, not something that can be decided by one side."
If Pei Mingxuan really found another woman, then giving Yuan Shuhuan a reason not to leave would be good. All of this was originally a matter between two people anyway.
"Really." Pei Mingxuan expressed his own doubts. Indeed, it was really so. As long as Yuan Shuhuan didn't give up easily. Pei Mingxuan felt that the two of them could still go on well no matter what. If Yuan Shuhuan continued to act in the same way. Pei Mingxuan really didn't know if he could hold on for another five years...
Still can't be like a mother, silently waiting without complaint. Waiting for that person to change their mind or solve the problem and come back to my side. Maybe they just don't understand what love is, only using it as a tool to trap each other.
"Really, and you? Coming out at midnight to do such a dangerous thing, and still associating with someone like Qi Zihao... If it wasn't for the heavy rain tonight, perhaps we would have both lost our lives, who knows." Yuan Shuhan said what he wanted to say. Actually, he had always been straightforward by nature.
Yu Shu Huan has always known that his personality is not good in the strict sense, but at least he exists in reality, walking between the bloody realities, and never hiding his true emotions. Yu Shu Huan doesn't think he's done anything wrong, because there's too much hypocrisy in this world...
But Yuan Shu Huan at least dares to say one thing to this world, living authentically isn't that many things, how many people in the world can do such a thing, Yuan Shu Huan thinks it's good enough for herself.
"I also have things I don't want to tell you, just like you do." Yuen So-yin had some things she didn't want to share. Bae Myung-seon also had secrets of her own that she didn't want to reveal. They both needed their own space. This was something Bae Myung-seon deeply understood. At least for herself, she needed a certain amount of space. Otherwise, it would only drive them further apart...
Yuan Shu was someone who would leave everyone behind when he did things. At this time, Pei Mingxuan also needed something to fill himself up with.
"I know. Just don't put yourself in danger. If I really had a child, how would you and the child be? Yuan Shu Han is now even more soft and cute. It's just because there is someone to rely on in her heart. But after all, this world still has other things that need to be done."
"There will be a child." Bae Myung-seon thought that the days were still short now. The child might be too early, but they would eventually have one. Maybe it would look more like him or maybe it would look more like Won Seo-hwan. But in the end, there would be such a child. He and Won Seo-hwan had no problem having children. How could they not give birth to a child?
"Yes, there will be. So I don't want you to take such a risk." Yuan Shu Huan looked at Pei Ming Xuan, the affection in his eyes was so moving. "At least bring me along, even if we die together it's fine." Can't be born on the same year, same month and same day, but being able to die on the same year, same month and same day is also good.
But it has to be said that this sentence deeply touched Pei Mingxuan's heartstrings. It turns out that Yuan Shuhuan still had such thoughts and feelings, which made people feel quite envious.
He and Yuan Shu Han, can it be like this? Pei Ming Xuan had a few uncertain thoughts in his heart, but he was also confused by Yuan Shu Han's words. Yuan Shu Han has always been someone who says one thing and means it, so he should be able to make a clear decision on something like this too.
"That day will never come. I'll be back by your side." Pei Mingxuan knew that what he said might be wrong. Who can guarantee that there won't be such a day? But when Yuan Shuhuan said those words, Pei Mingxuan found that his heart was filled with an unbearable reluctance. How could he bear to let Yuan Shuhuan accompany him to death? Huan'er should live a better life than himself.
It turns out that even with resentment and hatred, the deepest part of his heart still had such affection. Pei Mingxuan looked at Yuan Shuhan's moving face and the unrequited love in his eyes. Only then did Pei Mingxuan realize he was so weak. Can't even hold onto hate for long. All because he liked someone. How could there be such a huge change.
"That's good." Pei Mingxuan had too many unknowns on his body. From the first day he met Pei Mingxuan, Yuan Shuhuan already knew this point. However, unfortunately, Yuan Shuhuan still couldn't let go of Pei Mingxuan. In fact, this was the root of their problem. If they could let go, how would there be so many worries today?
"If one day I can't find you, I will search for your trace to the ends of the earth. Although what happens after finding you is not guaranteed by Wen Shu Huan herself. But hasn't it not happened yet? Since she has been going with the flow for so long, continuing to go with the flow isn't a difficult thing."
"I thought that if one day I disappeared, you would just find someone else to marry and forget about me..." Pei Mingxuan suddenly couldn't continue speaking. I don't want Yuan Shuhuan to forget about himself. This is something that absolutely cannot happen. If Yuan Shuhuan really did forget about himself one day, Pei Mingxuan thought he would probably go crazy.
"If I wanted to find someone else to marry, why would I wait until today to reunite with you? Yuan Shu Han has always been surrounded by men who are not lacking in number, and it's not just Pei Ming Xuan alone. Among them, there are also many weirdos, such as the loving couple Yan Yun Jin and Feng Ruo, or Fei Jian, who has never shown any emotional attachment to anyone, including children."
Moreover, behind Pei Mingxuan's back, there was always a devoted and unwavering Si Kong Zihong waiting for him. Yuan Shuhuan felt that compared to those girls, the men around her were actually quite numerous.
"You are mine." Pei Mingxuan's words were somewhat domineering, but he only wanted to be domineering now. As for being a good husband, Pei Mingxuan felt that he still needed it at the moment. At least, he couldn't let Yuan Shuhuan fly away from his hands like this. This was something that Pei Mingxuan absolutely could not tolerate. After all, this was also a duck that had already reached his mouth.
"It's yours." Yuan Shu said this with a somewhat gentle tone. Indeed, she has been preparing to become a cute girl recently.
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