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Chapter 13: Going Up? (Refined)

  


  

  Again.

  First thing I notice—like the

  universe booted up, hit Ctrl+Alt+Delete, and forgot to install

  textures. Just vibes and void.

  Then—music.

  That same warped, underwater

  lounge jazz from before. Slow and syrupy, drifting through the air

  like Miles Davis took a nap in a fish tank. Faint, fuzzy, and

  unmistakably retro—like someone pressed play on a cursed record

  player behind a drywall purgatory.

  Is that... The

  Girl from Ipanema?

  Yeah. The analog version. Real vintage.

  Full of crackle and hiss, like it’s broadcasting straight from a

  1970s dentist’s office in the fourth dimension. And it's looping. A

  cosmic lullaby for the recently expired and existentially

  inconvenienced.

  I open my eyes—though that’s

  probably a metaphor at this point. Hard to say. My whole head feels

  like it’s been submerged in expired jello, and the idea of having

  "eyeballs" is more of a courtesy than an anatomical fact

  right now.

  Glass.

  Everywhere.

  Floor, walls, ceiling—assuming

  those concepts still apply in this architectural fever dream. All of

  it glowing faintly, pulsing with a rhythm that’s less "alive"

  and more "softly panicking." The whole room feels like it

  was dipped in moonlight, then sprayed down with aerosolized anxiety.

  Outside?

  Yeah, no, that’s

  not a view. That’s a drug trip someone painted across the void.

  Nebulae churn like finger paint

  dumped into an aquarium. Crimson, amethyst, radioactive mint—all

  swirling in lazy spirals, like God got bored mid-brushstroke. Stars

  blink in and out like they’re in on the joke, little bastards.

  Whole galaxies flicker across the void like screensavers on a

  billion-dollar acid binge.

  And me?

  I’m just… floating. Sort

  of.

  There’s no gravity. No

  direction. No helpful UI or respawn beacon. Just me, loosely tethered

  to this... meat puppet I think is still mine. Every move feels like

  trying to stir molasses with a toothpick. My limbs trail behind,

  sluggish and detached, like I’m the ghost of someone mid-swim in a

  bottle of cough syrup last FDA-approved in the late ‘90s.

  I lift a hand—it lags like my

  body’s buffering.

  “Not this shit again,” I

  mutter.

  Voice is dulled, like it’s

  being played through wet socks. Even the sound feels reluctant.

  I try rubbing my face.

  Or, well—what used to be

  my face. Here, “touch” is more of a suggestion. There’s no

  heat, no pressure, just the vague implication of motion. Like my

  body’s pantomiming muscle memory without bothering to inform the

  muscles.

  Feels like petting air. Really

  convincing air. The kind of air that might start charging

  you rent if you loiter long enough.

  How many times has this

  happened now? Three? Four? Enough that it’s starting to feel like a

  subscription service I forgot to cancel. My brain’s replaying the

  whole thing on a busted VHS—static-laced images, jump cuts, flashes

  of light, and that weird strobing migraine aura that says,

  “Congratulations, you’re either ascending or seizing.”

  I remember pain. Not the

  stub-your-toe-and-swear-at-God kind. No, this was bone-snapping,

  air-punching, gut-screaming agony. The kind of hurt that makes your

  whole system go full blue screen of death—Critical Error: Soul

  Not Found.

  Then movement.

  A

  snarl.

  Teeth—way too many teeth. Claws like surgical

  instruments. Eyes that weren’t just looking at me—they were

  evaluating. Calculating. Like they were measuring me for a coffin.

  Demi-human women.

  Right. That happened. Still

  emotionally buffering from that little adventure.

  Then—bam. Blackout. Lights

  cut. Back to square one.

  At this point, I think my death

  count qualifies as statistically alarming. Possibly even grounds to

  file a celestial class-action lawsuit. Do they make ghost lawyers?

  I try pacing. Because that’s

  what people do when they’re buzzing with leftover adrenaline and

  nowhere to put it. But it’s useless. Like trying to jog through a

  screensaver. My legs move, sure, but there’s no weight. No

  friction. No floor. Just inertia on life support.

  Even my arms swing wrong—jerky,

  out of sync. Like they’re testing out a new update and the patch

  notes forgot elbows were a thing.

  The elevator hums around me.

  Soft and sheepish, like it’s apologizing for existing. There’s no

  panel, no buttons, no friendly little floor number blinking in the

  corner. Just a steady, abstract sense of up. I think. Hard

  to say. There’s no visual anchor—just vibes and directional hope.

  It’s like eternity decided to

  install a lobby and forgot to furnish it.

  Then—

  A flicker.

  The walls ripple.

  Not metaphorically—like,

  actual ripples. Like someone chucked a rock into the fabric

  of reality and the water’s still sloshing. Space itself quivers at

  first, like it’s ticklish. Then it deepens. Shudders. Starts

  convulsing like the whole dimension’s about five seconds from an

  emotional breakdown.

  And yeah—sure enough, it

  sobs.

  Or something like it.

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  Shadows bleed in around the

  seams, stretching long and slow, curling like smoke that forgot which

  way is up. Then they snap—like pulled rubberbands—into jagged,

  twitchy forms. Not just shadows anymore.

  Images.

  Memories.

  Wounds.

  First up: a courtroom. Cold.

  Bleached. Too damn bright. Like someone turned the contrast all the

  way up on judgment.

  And there she is—my ex.

  Carved from ice and bulletproof glass. Lips tight, eyes hollow with

  disappointment so sharp it could etch steel. She doesn’t say a

  word. Doesn’t have to. That look does the heavy lifting.

  Cool. Clinical. Surgical

  disappointment.

  God, that still stings. Maybe always will.

  Another twitch in the dark, and

  suddenly it’s firelight. Orange and wild. Smoke threading into a

  black sky with no stars to catch it. My kids—God, my kids—their

  faces lit up like paper lanterns, flickering between memory and

  maybe. Their laughter slices straight through the silence like a hot

  knife through my ribcage.

  Too bright.

  Too real.

  Too

  alive.

  And absolutely, one hundred percent,

  not supposed to be here.

  Then—her.

  My sister.

  Arms folded. Jaw tight. Eyes narrowed like she’s reading a report

  card and already knows I failed. That look—half concern, half

  seriously, Grant?—is more effective than a slap. No voice, no

  scolding, just that expression saying, You’re better than this.

  So why the hell aren’t you?

  I want to answer, but—

  The

  scene shifts.

  The farm.

  My farm.

  Sunlight spills across the

  fields like melted amber. Wheat rolls in lazy waves under the wind.

  The barn creaks open, all familiar and alive, breathing deep with

  morning. The smell hits me like a freight train of nostalgia—cut

  grass, warm soil, sweat soaked into cotton. Honest smells. Things you

  don’t notice until they’re gone.

  It’s so close I can feel

  it.

  Taste it.

  I reach. Hand out,

  trembling—heart lurching behind my ribs like maybe if I grab fast

  enough, hard enough—

  Gone.

  Erased.

  Like breath on a windowpane.

  Like someone wiped the memory clean and forgot to ask if I was done

  with it.

  My gut folds in on itself,

  tight and twisting. Cold panic settles in. Not loud. Not screaming.

  Just final.

  Was that it?

  A cosmic

  highlight reel?

  The universe’s way of saying, “Thanks for

  playing, here’s your trauma montage before we hit DELETE”?

  What happens if I don’t make

  it back next time?

  Do they disappear

  too?

  Do they get overwritten, repurposed, reformatted like

  outdated save files?

  What if I am the

  glitch?

  No.

  No.

  My hands ball into fists. Jaw

  clenched so hard my teeth ache. Heart hammering like it's trying to

  punch through bone.

  The jazz skips.

  Just for a second. A blip. A

  hiccup in the background groove. But that’s all it takes. One

  off-beat and suddenly, yeah—this space-between-spaces? Not just a

  vibe.

  Something's here.

  A low buzz kicks in. Static

  crawling up the walls. The glass groans, slow and reluctant, like

  it's under pressure—like something's leaning on it from the other

  side.

  Something big.

  Something

  patient.

  And then—yeah. I feel

  it.

  That kind of pressure you don’t

  hear so much as register in your bones. Not pain

  exactly—more like the feeling of being watched by something that

  doesn’t blink.

  My breath catches. Instinct

  screams run.

  Which would be hilarious if it

  weren’t so tragic. Run where, exactly? Into the existential

  wallpaper? Back to the jazz?

  The void outside

  ripples—shivering in waves, distortion washing over it like bad VHS

  tape tracking. Heat shimmer meets mid-render fail.

  Something wants in.

  Then the whisper starts.

  Low. Soft. Not even sound,

  really—just... presence. Like memory playing on loop underwater.

  But it’s personal. Familiar

  in a way that shouldn’t be possible.

  My heart spikes. Just—bam.

  All systems go.

  I know that voice.

  But the words scatter the

  moment I reach for them. Like trying to catch fog with your bare

  hands. The second you notice it, it’s already gone.

  I press a hand to the glass.

  Cold. Thin as breath. “Who’s there?”

  No answer.

  Just silence. Thick, clinging

  silence. But the whisper doesn’t leave. It sinks.

  Burrows down. Past skin. Past

  muscle. Nesting somewhere in the ribs like it belongs there.

  Then—jolt.

  The elevator kicks like it just

  hit a pothole in spacetime. Shudders. Lurches. One second of

  mechanical panic before it catches and keeps going, humming like

  nothing ever happened.

  Outside? The stars smear. Long

  streaks of white chaos. Like somebody took a paintbrush to the

  universe mid-scroll.

  Whatever was out there?

  It saw where I was headed.

  And

  it really didn’t like it.

  I don’t have to be a genius

  to figure it out—something out there really doesn’t want

  me reaching the next stop on this existential elevator ride.

  So I brace. Because clearly,

  flexing my core muscles will protect me from whatever metaphysical

  nonsense is about to jump me.

  And then—ding.

  The softest little chime. Like

  an elevator in a hotel lobby, not a cosmic void-glider possibly

  powered by jazz and spite.

  The doors hiss open.

  And I get hit with light.

  Bright, sterile, full-on eye-murder. Pure and cold, like someone took

  a surgical lamp and cranked it to divine interrogation mode. I throw

  up a hand, squinting through the glare like I’m trying to stare

  down God with a hangover.

  That whisper?

  Yeah, it’s back. Louder now.

  Urgent. Less a gentle nudge and more of a mental fire alarm someone’s

  duct-taped to my skull.

  Whatever had been dragging

  nails across the glass—watching, pressing, waiting—it’s

  gone.

  Let go?

  Got bored?

  Lost

  connection?

  Not sure. Not asking. Not

  thrilled that I kind of miss it.

  But here I am. On my feet.

  New world. New rules.

  And judging by the pressure

  still vibrating in my spine, new problems.

  But hey—at least I’m…

  “Shit.”

  That’s right… I’m dead.

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