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  Hehe, I'm soundiremely pathetiow... Of course, a desire like that is only al, a need of a lonely woman, a silly thing of no importance.

  If there was the possibility of a new life, well... I'd just ask for things to go on as they were before. Just a quiet existence, living my own way, in peace. Of course, I know there would be difficulties, as always, and I would have to act, as I always do. But that wouldn't be a problem, after all, I'd be fine... living life, one way or another.

  - But what?

  Suddenly, I feel something warm. An ache, but also a f sensation, a tingling that invades me. And, most importantly, I'm feeling something!

  It's a mixture of sensations. A fme that seems to e me, but at the same time something cold that envelops me, as if I were trapped in a freezing pce. I feel as if I'm lying in a river, no longer in trol of my body, but I still feel it. Something flows inside me, like water, but there's also something poking me, like knives pierg my skin.

  It's an agoniziion, not pleasant at all. Anyone else would have fai the first instant, but here I am, experieng this pain... Is that appropriate to say? It doesn't matter...

  And the pain only gets worse. Something flows inside me, like a stream of boiling water, c through my veins. The sensation of warmth increases, as if my skin were being coated with a velvety warm yer. It bothers me deeply.

  Suddenly, I start tain some of my senses, but somehow, I'm still immobile.

  I taste something strange, which is curious because I don't even know if I still have a mouth. The taste is unpleasant, as if I had slept with my mouth open, lig some tissue.

  This persists until I realize that my hearing has returned... Argh!

  A loud crack occurs near my ear, followed by a long buzzing sound. But suddenly everything goes silent... Now I hear the gentle sound of running water, as if I were near a river or waterfall.

  And I firm this when I regain my sense of touch.

  Now that I have this sense back, I notice that I'm lying on something hard, a ptform or a smooth floor, pletely damp. This firms that I'm somewhere, but I 't get up, no matter how hard I try.

  Suddenly, I feel my fourth seurning: sight.

  But everything is still dark. Curiously, I have the impression that my eyes are there, that I see, but I 't open them. It's frightening. Before, I was adrift, but now I feel like I'm trapped, and that scares me even more. Could this be the coffin they used to bury me in? If it is, I'm screwed. If I'm really about to wake up seve under, I'd die anyway. That's terrifying in many ways!

  But now my sense of touch is sharper. I feel some vital ans moving.

  My stomach rumbles, but I'm not hungry. It's just ay and desperation causing this sensation. My head has also started to think again, but it hurts, it burns, as if I had a fever. My body is trying to send me a message... And I realize that I'm not well.

  At least my bdder is empty. If there were people arouhe embarrassment would be enormous. I'd ask to die again, just to escape the shame.

  But even with all that, something still doesn't work: my heart.

  I 't feel it beating. In fact, I don't feel anything. My lungs are also paralyzed... Now that touch is back, I feel suffocated.

  The sensation of having no oxygen in my body is terrifying, much more so than anything I've experienced so far. I have to do something. If I don't, I'll tio feel this pain. I o breathe...

  Even so, I'm pletely weak. Everything is still weak. But my survival depends on my will to live. So I o trate and breathe.

  I'm trying, but it seems that my lungs don't really work. My nose is blocked too... e on, May, don't give up! You just o breathe!

  - 'Ofega' 'Cof' 'Cof'.

  As if breathing for the first time in a long time, I wake up from a long sleep.

  ***

  - 'Sigh' 'Cough'

  'Cough' Argh! That hurts!

  I took a big breath, expanding my lungs, and at that moment, a sharp pain shot through my chest, specifically on the left side, where my heart was rag untrolbly. The pain seemed to e from every part of my body, as if I had been standing still for months, without moving.

  And indeed, it seemed that I hadn't moved for a long time. My legs, arms, back, even my stomach-everything feels heavy, as if I'm stuck to the ground. My eyes 't open, they stay closed, as if I'm trying to wake up from a deep, endless sleep.

  I o trol my breathing. It's rapid and unstable. Calm down, May, try to stay calm. Even if it feels like I've had ten espressos in a row, I o trol myself somehow.

  - Sigh Exhale

  I repeat this process for a few minutes and gradually my breathing stabilizes. Now I o pay attention to my other senses...

  First, I o open my eyes. Argh, they feel stuck, as if I've never opehem before. It's the same sensation as when I wake up after a long night, with only a few hours of sleep.

  Uff... I'm getting it. I already see a small crack. It's still dark, but the hue around it has started to ge. My eyelids are moving little by little. e on... a bit more...

  - Uff!

  I've do! I've opened my eyes! But my vision is pletely blurred. Everything is still in shadows, but it's slowly starting to clear up. Damn, now I feel like I've just woken up after Happy Hour, but for some reasohing is still very dark.

  The fog that was blurring my vision has begun to dissipate. Now I see clearly. It's strange, but my eyes, which were burning and partially blind before, are back to normal. Everything around me is clear, but still...

  Hm? Suddenly, my body no longer feels so heavy. Although I have tle to get up, the feeling of heavihat used to e me has pletely disappeared.

  I move my hands, wiggle my toes, breathe calmly. Now, all I have to do is stand up.

  Ugh... Uaah! I did it...